I'm booking at 1pm in the afternoon. To attend a funeral of a warrent officer that I do not know. I don't mean to be cold-hearted but doesn't he have his own friends? Whats the logic behind sending a platoon of men to fill up space? Then again, where's the logic of being in SAF?

The temptation to drop everything and 'run away' is increasing. Its been on the back of my mind alot lately. In the army, I can ride on reputation, and the power of the chevron or the 3 stripes as its known in SAF. Not that I do... But I can. However in church, a leader is defined by a very different standard. People can 'smell' if you're genuine or not. And to be honest... I don't think I've been very genuine these few weeks.